Mid Life Crisis?

was watching the west wing last night and saw an episode called "365".

it's an episode that looks at the presidential administration facing the close of their final term. they find themselves in a position of just keeping their proverbial heads above the water.

then one of them who has seemingly spent the day wasting time watching old tapes of their president's finest moments whilst the rest of the team barely have time to grab a coffee, gathers them together at the very late hours of the evening.

he has a whiteboard and scribbles on it "365". he asks them what they have done. all comment about the busy-ness and their struggles. they heartily agree that they are glad that the day has ended and they're still alive.

he states clearly we have 365 days left.... what are we going to do: are we going to continue to just make it through the day... or are we going to make a change. we have an opportunity to do in one day here what would take others a lifetime to do. what do you want to do?

the episode goes on.

all of a sudden i find myself thinking. what am i doing with my time, am i on the back foot.... wouldn't i prefer to be on the front one. what do i want to do with the time that i have left?